I remember, tyn would stay with on the phone and sing me a song until wee hours just so i would stop crying and go to sleep. Thats what depressson did to me. I can’t afford to go back to that kind of situation, im scared. I dont want it to eat all of me again. Those days that i never knew what smiling was and i would fake everything up so that people wouldnt notice that everything about me was wrong.
I just have to let this out. Sobrang sakit, as in sobrang sakit. Ang hirap talaga pag nafafall. Fall talaga e, ang sakit ng pagkakabagsak ko hahaha tangina. Yung ready na ko magtake ng risk after all these years tapos ganun mangyayare. Grabe lang. Feeling ko ang manhid manhid ko na. Eto nananaman ako, ang kinakatakot ko lang yung bumalik ako sa dati. Ayokong kainin nanaman ako neto. Ang tanga ko din kasi minsan eh. Nahihirapan na ko, di ko na alam gagawin ko. Tangina, ang sakit. Oras lang kelangan ko. Kaya ko to.
Will blog about my bestfriends surprise soon ♥
You know why girls try to pick up a fight with their boyfriend then eventually says sorry and cry when the guy starts to fight back or get angry? It’s because they just want their guys to be sweet to them. She wants him to shut her up with a kiss, hug her like he’s never gonna let go and hold her in his arms until they both feel each other’s body heat. It’s a way of making a girl feel reassured, a way of making her feel that he will do anything just to make her smile and that she’s his only one. It’s not about word or arguments, she just wants to feel him, feel him on her; but sometimes, guys don’t just get it..
Still on my pjs tapos di pa naliligo at di pa lumalabas ng kwarto. How productive.
|Jun:||bes anong favorite song mo?|
|Ako:||i don't know, madami e. Mahilig ako sa music.|
|Jun:||yung song na di mawawala sa playlist mo?|
|Ako:||ah.. dear no one ni tori kelly.|
|Jun:||bes alam mo, they say that a girls favorite song talks alot about her.|
|Ako:||*thinks of the songs lyrics*...|
She’s scared to fall for a guy again. It’s like, she wants to cry over that stupid thought. She can’t explain it, she’s confused. She thinks she likes the guy but she doesnt want it that way. She’s not ready yet.