Unsaid feelings.
Tuesday, August 19, 2014

I remember, tyn would stay with on the phone and sing me a song until wee hours just so i would stop crying and go to sleep. Thats what depressson did to me. I can’t afford to go back to that kind of situation, im scared. I dont want it to eat all of me again. Those days that i never knew what smiling was and i would fake everything up so that people wouldnt notice that everything about me was wrong.

I just have to let this out. Sobrang sakit, as in sobrang sakit. Ang hirap talaga pag nafafall. Fall talaga e, ang sakit ng pagkakabagsak ko hahaha tangina. Yung ready na ko magtake ng risk after all these years tapos ganun mangyayare. Grabe lang. Feeling ko ang manhid manhid ko na. Eto nananaman ako, ang kinakatakot ko lang yung bumalik ako sa dati. Ayokong kainin nanaman ako neto. Ang tanga ko din kasi minsan eh. Nahihirapan na ko, di ko na alam gagawin ko. Tangina, ang sakit. Oras lang kelangan ko. Kaya ko to.

Will blog about my bestfriends surprise soon ♥

Sunday, August 17, 2014

NAGPAPALAMBING AKO, TANGA!

You know why girls try to pick up a fight with their boyfriend then eventually says sorry and cry when the guy starts to fight back or get angry? It’s because they just want their guys to be sweet to them. She wants him to shut her up with a kiss, hug her like he’s never gonna let go and hold her in his arms until they both feel each other’s body heat. It’s a way of making a girl feel reassured, a way of making her feel that he will do anything just to make her smile and that she’s his only one. It’s not about word or arguments, she just wants to feel him, feel him on her; but sometimes, guys don’t just get it..

Saturday, August 16, 2014
Paggising ko, eto una kong nakita sa notifications ko. Thank you kuya @calebmusik21 ♥

Paggising ko, eto una kong nakita sa notifications ko. Thank you kuya @calebmusik21 ♥

Still on my pjs tapos di pa naliligo at di pa lumalabas ng kwarto. How productive.

Jun: bes anong favorite song mo?
Ako: i don't know, madami e. Mahilig ako sa music.
Jun: yung song na di mawawala sa playlist mo?
Ako: ah.. dear no one ni tori kelly.
Jun: bes alam mo, they say that a girls favorite song talks alot about her.
Ako: *thinks of the songs lyrics*...
Friday, August 15, 2014

081514 ♥

So its started off yesterday. Ako kasi yung humahawak ng pera ni byran. (3rd person starting from left, first pic) okay so he’s the one in my blog posts. Anyway, kahapon bago kami umuwi, kinuha nya yung pera nya saken tapos sabi nya may utang daw sya kay jim (1st person starting from left) kahit wala naman syang nasabe saken nun na meron. Tapos nung paglabas namen ng room, naguusap sila e nagkukulit ako kung san san tas parang di ko nalang pinansin. Sa room kasi, kaming apat yung sobrang close, si gin saka si jim magbf/gf tapos kami ni bryan laging napapagkamalan hahaha tapos pag friday, since 1pm pasok namen, naghahangout kami sa bahay ni gin na malapit sa school, dun narin kami kumakain tas nanunuod ng movies bago pumasok. Napagusapan na 9am daw pupunta eh usually 8am kami pumupunta dun.

sabay kasi kami ni bryan lagi umuwi, nung pauwi na kami, di daw sya sasabay saken kasi sasama daw sya sa mga barkada nameng boys tapos hinayaan ko nalang sya. Around 10 na ata sya nakauwi tas naguusap kami na nag comp daw sila tas tinatanong nya saken kung anong favorite kong color hanggang sa kung ano ano nalang napaguaapan namen. The next day (today, august 15) pagdating ko sa bahay nila gin, nandun na sila. Aroungd 10am nagdecide na bumili ng food yung dalawang guy, naisip nila na magluto ng pansit saka friedchicken since 3rd monthsary din ni jim at gin. Nung nakauwi na sila tapos habang nagluluto, naligo na si gin. After nya maligo, sasama sana ko sa kwarto nya sa taas kaya lang pinagsarhan nya ko ng pinto pero after a few sec, binuksan nya rin kaya lang tinamad na ko umakyat.

Nung naluto na lahat ng food, humiga muna ko sa sofa tapos kinukulit ako ni bryan. Nung nalingon ako, parang may sinasabe sya kay gin, akala ko pa nga tinatakot nya e. Birthday kasi din ng dad nya who passed away, years ago. Habang nakahiga ako, biglang bumaba si jim na may dalang cake. Yung initial reaction ko, nagtakip ako ng muka tas nagtago ako sa sofa haha ewan ko para kong tanga tapos namura ko pa ata sila haha. Kinantahan nila ko ng happy birthday habang binababa yung cake pero nakatakip lang yung muka ko kasi naiiyak ako, para kasing mga baliw haha. Yung utang pala na sinasabe ni bryan eh yung ambagan nila para sa cake, yung pinaguusapan pala nila nun sa lobby eh kung pano gagawin, yung sinabe nya saken na nagcomputer sila magbabarkada eh nagpasama pala bumili ng cake tapos yung sinisenyas pala nya kay gin eh yung kandilang nakataho sa cabinet.

Sobrang tuwa ko after ko umiyak, hinug ko sila isa isa tapos nag thankyou, seryoso muka akong bata haha. Alam kasi nila na wala talaga kong plan sa birthday ko which is tom, balak ko pa nga na mag duty sa school para sa inhouse practicum pero di ko talga inaasahan na may ganong echos haha. So lucky to have them, sobrang natuwa ako sa ginawa nila kahit medyo inasar muna nila ko dahil dun saarang ayaw nila ko isali sa mga pinaguusapan nila tas iniiwan ako haha. After nun, dinala namen yung food na natira saka yung buong cake sa school, actually di ako nakakain ng cake, parang nagpapicture lang ako haha kasi halos nasa 15 kaming magbabarkada mix ng boys and girls pero okay lang yun, masaya naman ako.

Loyal people experience the most betrayal.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Konti nalang mas matangkad na sya saken </3 #sister

Konti nalang mas matangkad na sya saken </3 #sister

She’s scared to fall for a guy again. It’s like, she wants to cry over that stupid thought. She can’t explain it, she’s confused. She thinks she likes the guy but she doesnt want it that way. She’s not ready yet.

 
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